a strange start into a new year

i’ve been trying to come up with a meaningful new year’s post but i find myself unable to think clearly. things have been happening here in this house that i can’t really write about, and i’m somewhat less than happy. hope this will improve, probably my first wish for the new year.

i’m not a person for new year’s resolutions, somehow it feels like putting myself up for failure. i make plans, i wish for things, but i don’t make resolutions. there are some things i just know, like i lost 28 lbs during the last couple of months and i’m going to lose another 28 in the next couple of months. it’s not a resolution, it’s something i’ll do. then there are the things i don’t dare to talk about, things i plan to do year after year and then don’t get around to, like starting to draw again. seriously, i’m so caught up in all the digital work that i feel i’m forgetting how to use my hands. i used to do beautiful calligraphy. i used to draw. i wish i could find a way to make room for that, time as well as physical space. at the same time i need more jobs that actually pay. we have been doing so many veejay jobs now that don’t pay off much more than the travel costs, money is really starting to get tight. so, there’s a lot i need to get a grip on during those next months. wish me luck.

the weekend will find us veejaying in hamburg again, the last party on the ms stubnitz was really fun, so i should be looking forward to this. i’m sure i’ll get excited about it within the next 24 hours, but right now i rather feel like staying at home and cleaning out my non-existent desk drawers.

however, the party will be heavy, rusko is about the wildest stuff in dubstep you can find at the moment, and all the other guys (and gal) on the lineup are great and fun to perform with.

hopefully we’ll have time and good weather in hamburg to film some footage to use for the party, the “hafenklang exil” is a deserted warehouse dating back to the seventies i think and should be fun to play around with. it’s so ugly that it’s almost beautiful.

and now i have to get my gear ready, clean up my laptop, make dinner, take a shower … and clean out my non-existent desk drawers. this place is a mess.

~ by bine on January 3, 2008.